Yes, I know. It’s been a while. Months, even.
But don’t think I’ve fallen off the face of the earth, or even forgotten how to write. Instead, I have continued writing over the past however-many-weeks. It just hasn’t been on a blog.
I’m currently in a season of practicing patience. Translation: I’m waiting for God to do something miraculous in my life. The problem is, I’m pretty bad at waiting and trusting God to work things out in HIS power. My natural tendency is to work harder and fix it myself, but unfortunately, this is something only God can do. And so I wait.
But God is using this season of waiting. The harder it becomes for me to be patient, the closer and more intensely I seek him and his voice. He’s calling me to do something greater. He’s calling me to speak to others. I don’t know all the details, but this is what I do know: God has softened my heart for international families.
Over the past 6 weeks, I’ve started volunteering for an ESL (English-as-a-Second-Language) program at my church. One of the biggest benefits to being your own boss and having time freedom is being able to choose for whom you volunteer. I just have a heart for these people. The 120+ women (mostly) and men who come for English classes are from every corner of the world: China, Nigeria, Turkey, Iraq, Brazil, Mexico, Nicaragua, Spain, Russia, Syria, India, and many other countries. They are here in America, surrounded by people who don’t understand them, trying to fit in. The culture, the food, the clothes, the stores, even the houses are totally different from what they’re used to. These people are hard-working, many have precious families they are raising, and many of them have never heard of Jesus.
When I talked with the director of the ESL program a few months ago, I told her I didn’t have any experience teaching English, but I had been a college teacher for 3 years (what a God thing – He’s able to use every experience for his purposes). She told me I could be an assistant teacher in the Level 1 class, but more importantly, there was a gaping need: she needed someone to lead the 30 min group time each Wednesday and to write and lead a devotional every week.
I don’t have any formal training or background in writing ESL devotions. I have practically no experience explaining the gospel with people who hardly speak English. But God already knew that when he drew me to this program, and that’s exactly what I’ve been doing for the past 5 weeks. Every Wednesday, with a simple object lesson, I am teaching about the love of God. And THAT has given me SO MUCH JOY.
I wish I could say all my sadness and frustration over this season of waiting has been erased. It hasn’t completely. I still have hard days to get through, but I’m learning and more importantly BELIEVING that God’s got a perfect plan in all of this. I suspect this delay was the only way He could slow me down long enough to show me this incredible new chapter He has for my life. I am so grateful God allows me to see his rainbow, even in the rain.
Rainbow in the Rain